Since graduating high school (and I guess I'll see the trend soon since I just graduated college), my circle of friends have diminished. And I honestly do think a big part of it has to do with me. Obviously, I know people that are bigger flakes than me, but that doesn't make me any less of a flake. Other than a solid core of friends that I feel really comfortable with, sometimes I don't really want to call people to hang out. And I'll half ass it, like instead of returning their calls, I'll shoot them a text. While a few of them instances were with people that I thought our college experiences changed us and I felt somewhat uncomfortable hanging out with them. Others, no good reason other than I guess I didn't care as much as I thought I did. And it's sad to think about it. Because as this chapter closed, I still care and I want to know how they are and what they are up to now. If I thought it was hard to call them a year ago for whatever reason, it's not any easier to call them now. That being said, I do like my "scrappy" friends (as Phoebe described Monica when Phoebe tried to cut her out of her life). However, I'm not purposely trying to cut people out of my life. I already have a hard enough time returning calls and for people that I'm close to, but not super close to, I just have a hard time. And I apologize for that. It's not anything against anyone, merely a flaw of mine. So if you sense this is happening, be scrappy! I appreciate those who are bolder than me.
And I will try to call one or two people that I'm thinking about in the post and see what they are up. :)
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