The Americone Dream

Work hard and you will achieve your Americone Dream.

I was in the Ben&Jerry's section today, trying to decide what flavor I wanted. I was stuck between:
1. Americone Dream
2. Chunky Monkey
3. Pistachio Pistachio
4. Turtle Soup
5. Mint Chocolate Cookie

And I went with Stephen Colbert's Americone Dream. I won't deny that half the reason why I choose this flavor was because of Stephen Colbert. But the ice cream is very delicious, and I am very happy with my choice. I wonder how much Colbert made from my purchase..

Now I have a new dream, my American Dream if you will. It is to one day have my own ice cream flavor. One day I will be on the pint carton, smiling at you, urging you to buy my flavor (in a totally non-creepy way, I swear).

Time flies

I am more than half-way done with college.. In the last 7 quarters, I've come a long way but at the same time I haven't. I've declared my major(s)--Psychology & Sociology. But I still don't know what I want to do with that. I've learned the importance of studying, and yet I still don't. I've learned how to multi-task, but only because I've mastered the skill of procrastination. I've learned how to save money, but I also spend it much more quickly. I've come a long way, but I haven't.

It's weird that I'm past the half way point. Where do I go from here? Should I have more of a focus? Start planning for my future.. College is almost over.. I don't feel like I've been here for that long, and the time left I have is even shorter.. This is weird..

Rawr.

Puppies + Frisbee = <3

I love frisbee dogs. So cute.

Stomach Flu

My first experience with the stomach flu. It was great. It started yesterday, also when I had a midterm..

I didn't go to bed until 2 or 3 cuz I was studying for my midterm, woke up at 5, feeling completely sick and needing to vomit. Got up, emptied out my stomach. Tried to drink some water, got the chills. I attempted to turn on the heater, but in my state of delirium I had supposedly turned on the AC instead? So I was bundled up in a sweater, sweat pants, and under all my blankets, shivering. Woke up 2 more times to vomit out all the water that I had drank. And I had wonderful friends that called me at 9 to make sure I would wake up in time for my 10 o'clock midterm. At that point I wasn't even sure if I could make it to my midterm, but I checked the make-up exam policies, and the make up would be an essay question. And since we all hate essay exams, so I decided I would suck it up and take the midterm anyways. But before I left for my midterm, I had to upchuck my liquids one last time.

So I took my midterm (social psychology) in record time. It was 75 questions, and I finished it within 40 minutes. That's like 2 questions per minute. I was definitely not feeling well during the midterm, I think I started to get a slight fever then. So after I just bubbled whatever answers, I ran out there and vomited into some bushes, didn't get to a bathroom in time. By then, I realized something was clearly off. I called my mom who insisted that I go to the health center.

They held me there for a really long time to make sure I could keep down liquids, but I started dry-hurling, and they were worried I would just upchuck all the liquids I just drank. And from a few tests, they also said I was dehydrated. So I was given the option of having an IV to rehydrate me, or taking an anti nauseating pill. I opted for the anti-nauseating pill option. After a while, they finally let me go and once I got home I took some advil for my fever and knocked out.
I'm doing a lot better since then, but I'm very hesitant to eat anything, I had half a slice of bread and it didn't settle that well, so that was that. I'm drinking lots of water though! And Gatorade.

Oh, so for my psych midterm, I had emailed the professor immediately after I got home about the situation and how I rushed through the test cuz I was sick, and he's giving me the option of making it up. Woot. But still an essay exam, so I gonna wait to see how well/not well I did before I decide. Haha.

Hopefully I can still play at Sean Ryan this weekend. I've been looking forward to it. And my recovery is going very well.

On a completely other note, I have organized a game of assassins for ultimate, and it's so much fun even if I'm not playing. Good team bonding.. more like stalking, but both is fun. Haha.

Update

The 3 midterm in 2 days pulled off without a hitch. Got solid B's on all of them, so it's looking good. :) And the next ones are a bit more spread out, so I can focus more individually on each of them and hopefully pull up my grades a bit. It took me three years (well, start of the third) to start worrying/focusing on grades. Awesome, at least it happened right?

We had Chico last week which was bundles of fun. We lost every game, but I think we played well. It's hard cuz we (and by we, I mainly mean Danica) had to figure out subbing and coaching while we played. And we had to spread out our players evenly, but we've got some pretty awesome rookies. And there were times when we had good flow. There's still so much to work on, but our team is looking snazzy. I had the closest thing to a lay-out. Haha. My offender had an in cut, and I was right on her hip, it was a low throw and to the other hip that I was not on. I got low and tried to get a hand on it, touched it, and guess had a little lay out thing. I must say layouts are painful. Since I missed the D, I had to get up and put the mark on, but I wanted to just lie on the ground and be a baby. Hahaha. I had a few good hucks, nice pool plays.

Sean Ryan is approaching. We've got a lot of girls again, I'm not sure what we're going to do. But I'm really excited, we finally get to meet all the other teams. I have high hopes for our team this year. We all just need to be committed and dedicated to this team which I feel like some people need to work on..

So I watched HSM yesterday! Sooooo good! I love it. Zac Efron is quite hot now. Or he can be, sometimes he still looks funny. I love it, I keep listening to the soundtrack over and over again. Wonderful!

Anyways, I have to work on a paper cuz I fail at life.

No Crack for Crack Addicts

You don't give crack to crack addicts. You don't give alcohol to alcoholics. You don't let Teresa watch Jon & Kate Plus Eight. I don't really have free week nights. And the only time that I semi-do is the 2 hour break I have after class and before ultimate practice. During this time, Jon & Kate Plus Eight is on which is the most adorable show ever. For those of you who don't know, there's this couple (Jon and Kate.. SHOCKING!) with eight kids--twins and sextuplets. And it just follows them around. The twins are seven now, and sextuplets are three. The kids are sooo cute (they're halfies, so cute super-sized). And every time I watch the show, my urge to procreate at this very instant peaks. I love kids! And I want a kid. Haha.

My roommates are used to my constant whining about how I want kids now. We've even thought of names for my show when I have more kids than average. But I think I've realized that I should not watch the show anymore. It's just flaunting what I can't have in front of me. As much as I want to have kids, I realize that I probably shouldn't right now and kids are a huge responsibility and very expensive. So I suppress my urge to have kids--barely. As I watch Jon & Kate Plus Eight, I realize how alcoholics must feel when people are drinking if front of them. And I think I should stop watching it because of it's flaunting temptation. I love kids! (While watching Jon & Kate and taking Developmental Psychology, I think I want to work with kids in some capacity.)

I've always wanted lots of kids. And by lots I mean max four, ideally three. Haha, it's a lot if you're an only child. But I honestly have no idea why I really want kids now, even before Jon & Kate, that show only fueled my hunger. Perhaps my biological clock is ticking at the ripe age of 19 (almost 20).

Onto other aspects of my life. I have three midterms in two days next week. I should probably study. I'm too tired, school is hard. Ultimate is good. I'm having a lot of fun right now. If only I wasn't so tired when I go to practice, or also high of my want for children. I honestly just need sleep. I have almost no free time for myself. I'm never taking 20 units again nor working 15 hours simultaneously. Or either.

Back to Developmental Psych/Social Psych/Women Studies.

Unexpected Events

After a turn of unexpected events... I am now co-captain of women's team with Danica. It was completely unexpected, and came on me pretty quick. When I was first asked, I asked for time to think about it because it's a big commitment, and nothing had prepared me for something like this. And I wasn't sure if I was ready to give up (not really give up) my me-time on a whim. But after contemplating it for 2 days, I decided that this was something that I wanted. And even though the timing was kinda weird, it was an awesome opportunity.

We had Bay Area Mixer (BAM if you will) this weekend. So much fun. It was great, I loved it. Danica and I both played over half the points, so we were pretty dead. There was supposed to be a showcase game that we were supposed to play in, but that was canceled which was good, we were probably in no condition to play another game. Hahaha. There's SOOOOO much potential this year. We have amazing rookies, awesome crusites. This is going to be a good year. So much better than last year. Oh, and I can flick huck now. What what. Double threat. Haha. I remember teams last year catching on that I have a good backhand, and forced me forehand... And that was bad. But it's okay, this year I can do both.

About school, I'm taking 20 units. Thinking about maybe dropping a class since I got a zero out of ten on our first quiz. Ouch. I don't think I've ever got a zero before. Blahhhh. Haha. And working 15 hours. Plus practice. So I stay busy.

Ooooh, and NEVER ENDING PASTA at Olive Garden! So excited. I'm gonna eat so much!

**EDIT: I did not get a zero on my quiz. Another TA got my quiz, so my TA didn't have it and just marked it as a zero. In actuality I received a nine out of ten. Felt the need to clarify so I don't come off as a complete idiot.

Wish List

How to Reduce Your Carbon Footprint: $12.95. Go green! And 13 bucks is a small price to pay to help save the earth. Pretty illustrations make it an easier read. Definitely one of the first things I'll get once I start work again in 2 weeks.

Drinn: $10. I just got a new phone around a month ago. And I'm one of those super anal people who always keep the plastic protective wrap on as along as possible (my laptop is still protected by it's sticky plastic thing), and I also like to keep cords bundled up and tied up. I hate untying them, it's the first sign that your new product is being depreciated. So as of now, when I charge my cell phone, since the charger cord knot has yet to be undone, my cellphone sort of hangs a feet of the ground by a thread. Literally. So this would be nice. Also, even after I undo my cord I always have trouble finding the end of the cord/my cell phone. Drinn sounds pretty useful.

Cool Feet: $12.95. My laptop gets pretty hot. Also the elevated stance seems nice and easier on the wrists. However, my laptop has the rubberized grips on the bottom and it's placed (and shaped) in such a way where I cannot place the suction pads on my laptop. So I've been looking for some alternatives. None seem quite as simple nor as cheap. There's lots of coolers that "vacuum" out the hot air, but the vacuum is almost always located in the center. However my laptop blows off steam in the left hand corner of the bottom. Anyone know of any other cheap simple alternatives?

Wooden Tissue Box: $20. Probably would never get it. 20 bucks? I think it's cool, much cooler than my usual kleenex box, but definitely not worth 20 bucks. It's still awesome, and it'd be pretty classy to have.

Hybrid Wall Clock: $35.75. Go green! Neat idea. Creative. It'd be an interesting piece to hang up, great for Davis too. But a tad too expensive, and from my experience last year my clock will never display the right time (I never adjusted it for daylight savings, and once the daylight savings came around the second time, and once it displayed the right time, it shortly ran out of batteries), so it's pretty much useless.

Button Push Pin: $24.50. This is cute. I would also like a magnet set. I have a white board on my desk and I always need magnets. I don't use my bulletin board quite as much, but if i have these instead of tacks, I might use it more often.

Soapsicles: $8.50. This is super cute! Only it'd get gross after a week or two. I would just get it and never use it. It's also edible (actually, I don't know how much it is edible as it is non-toxic). So I think I'll stick with Dreyer's FruitBars.

Clocky: $50. After your first snooze, it runs away and hides before beeping again to force you to get up and find it to turn it off. It's so cool! And it's cute too. I really feel that I do need one of those. I have a hard time waking up in the mornings (I once was an hour and a half late for my opening shift!). But 50 bucks is a high price to pay. It's definitely innovative, but I do think that I need to learn to wake up on my own without chasing around an alarm clock.

Aarnio Bubble Chair: $4,000. Yeah, never gonna get this. But it sure is cool. But that's it. It would stand out like a sore thumb at my place. And an outrageously expensive sore thumb. It's too alien and techy for me, but it is cool to look at and marvel over. It would seem to be pretty inconvenient though. You would have to hang it from the ceiling, so it wouldn't be easy to move or adjust. It'd be hard to find other furniture to match with this. And for the ones that do, hopefully it will not be quite as expensive as this one.

I figured I'd end of an expensive, unrealistic note. But trust me, there's more things that I want. More to come.

Quarter Life Crisis

What am I doing with my life? I have no idea. I don't know if I want to pursue a higher education after college. Maybe law school? And I realized that since I'm double majoring, doesn't look like I'll graduate in 4 years unless I take summer school or maybe just an extra quarter. Hm. But at this point, unless I have insurance after I graduate, I should probably stay in school. I have no idea.

This summer I also realize that I will be significantly poorer than my high school friends. I don't think I mind too much. There's a few of them that I don't think they could handle being poor (and when I say poor, I don't actually mean poor, just not as rich as their families are now). But it's just that when they're all together talking about how rich they plan to be in 10 years, I'm just thinking I'll be super content if I'll make more than 50,000 a year. Like honestly, I'm not saying that I'll be fine if I was poor, but I do think I can handle having less money than some of my friends. I don't think I'm quite as materialistic as some of my friends. Haha.

I really need to figure out my life. I don't think that I've been unhappy this past year. But I do not think I've been particularly happy either. I've had my fair shares of disappointment this year. And various struggles, many humbling experiences. I want to do something meaningful with my life. I want to make a difference in the world. I really don't know what's in store for me. I feel like I really need time to just reflect and explore what I want in life. And it's hard during school cuz I just get so busy. And many times I feel like I'm doing things for the wrong reasons. Other times I won't do right things for the wrong reasons. Should I? I really don't know.

I just need to have faith I suppose. Easier said than done. Hopefully, this year won't be as much of an emotional struggle for me. I just.. I don't know. Quarter life crisis. I suppose. Everything happens for a reason. There are aspects of my life that I know what I want, but I'm unsure of how to obtain them. Well, not exactly unsure, but more like it's hard for me to do and stay true.

Your 10th Visit Free!

If I had one of those stamp cards for the dentist, I would totally have a free visit by the end of the year. But alas, those freebie cards are only for boba and yogurt. To be fair though, my visits aren't restricted to only the dentist.

I've had:
2 dentist appointments
1 orthodontic appointment
1 TMJ specialist appointment
2 Oral surgeon/Jaw specialist appointments

I don't think I've even seen my friends this much...

We'll see where this leads me. BTW, the internet is a very scary tool. Some stuff that I've researched has brought unnecessary fear.

Also, the internet has lead me to many TV show addictions. I realize that are many good shows out there, but if I were to watch every single one and catch up, I would have the rest of my life laid out in front of me. I now watch House, Chuck, Psych, Burn Notice, and Eureka. I'm a bit scared to tread into more waters for I fear I will drown in the vastness of TV shows.

KAYAKING!

Started the weekend with a sleepover. A lot of fun, we lost Mike, but quickly found him in Christina's room floor when Hui and I were heading to bed. Hahaha.

Saturday morning was filled with whining from hungry people. Went to the cottage, good food. Then headed over to La Jolla Shores to go kayaking. So first it was going to be Ryan and Hui in one, Sitong and Brian, me and Christina. But as we got our kayaks and headed into the water, it was clear that it would be hard for two girls. We could barely hold on to the kayaks against the waves let alone get in. Christina started getting really annoyed and pissed, saying that Sitong and Brian need to split up and go with one of us while Sitong was completely oblivious to her anger and had already jumped into his kayak. Brian told Christina to go with Sitong while he would be with me.

Brian and I proceeded to struggle for at least 5 minutes to get into the kayak. We were too close to shore, so each time we got in, the waves would take us and we would flip. I think we flipped around 3 times, sometimes Brian hadn't even gone in yet. Haha. So basically, we were struggling and it did not look like we were going to get in anytime soon while the other boats were already out in the water. Sitong then abandoned his kayak to swim back to shore to help me and Brian on. Hahaha. We went into the deep end, and I couldn't jump in cuz we were too deep, so Brian had to hold onto the kayak while Sitong heaved me in. It took awhile for us to get in, and after we rowed our way to where everyone else was, I realized that I had lost my water proof disposable camera. Hahahaha. It fell off of the string, I guess one of the many times I flipped did it.

Anyways, it was a lot of fun. Once your actually deep in the ocean, it's a lot easier, cuz it's just currents, no big waves. But as we were going back to shore, Brian wanted to get out and walk the kayak in, while I wanted to ride the waves and let it carry us to shore. So a wave came, and we didn't get out, but it was too fast and strong, so we ended up flipping again. And this time, both me and Brian lost our sunglasses. Though his are 200, and mine were only like 75. But I had only gotten them in May. Oh well. I'm not telling my mom though, she'd get pissed.

All in all, super fun. I want to go again sometime, and of course with someone who is able to help me get into the kayak. Haha.

Dreams

I've had some interesting dreams which is nice because I usually don't remember what I dream about. So being able to remember my dreams are actually quite fun. First, I had a dream that I was a homewrecker. Hahaha. But I was a very smart and sly homewrecker... with the help of my mother?? It was definitely odd. And then another one about the frisbee team camping together. And just a few nights ago, me learning how to lay out (clearly a dream). Then this morning, I was involved in some sort of an explosion/vibration thing, and it was pretty huge. I woke up from the "explosion" to experience another less dynamic shake, to realize that it was an earthquake. After it stopped, I went back to sleep. Ahaha.

It's been an interesting summer. FYI Hp no longer transfers their customer service phone calls to India, I spoke with an American last week, the communication process was a lot easier.

Oh, and I've decided that I'm going to Comic Con for sure next year. People fly here from ALL over to go, and I LIVE HERE! Tickets are pretty cheap too! I want to see all the panels like the Office, and Chuck. And maybe they'll have some cool movie cast panel there.

And this weekend, I'm going kayaking!! How exciting!!! And maybe lounge around at the beach after/have a picnic. I'm so excited, it's going to be so much fun. I'm going to bring my disposable waterproof camera and take lots of awesome shots. First major thing that I'm doing this summer. Haha.

C: "I want to go into the water, it helps you tan faster"
T: "Oh really?"
"Yeah, when you're wet you tan faster."
"Ooooooor maybe it's because the water washes off the sunscreen.."
"...Oh.. that's true."

Five Days

I've played ultimate five days in a row, my legs are kind of hating me, but other than that it's been fun. First was PleasureTown ThrowDown, and I just picked up with a random local team that had a few girls from Safari. Lost in Semi's against LA Metro. I think I played okay during the tournament, scored a couple, and had a couple assists. But co-ed's a different game than women's for sure. And I was pretty out of shape coming into the tournament. It's always weird playing with a team you don't know. It takes a while to get used to everyone, and knowing each other's strengths, and developing that connection. Also team spirit/cheers, it always feels a bit awkward for me, maybe it's just me.

After that, I've been playing in a summer league which is pretty much like more organized and competitive pick-up. It's tough because our team only has two girls that actually show up. So on Monday, played the whole game. And we only had 9 guys or so, we were lacking in numbers pretty bad and got slaughtered. Haha. Plus on Monday, after the pull we would drop it on the first or second throw. But after our official game, we just had a fun game to three, which we ending up winning. On Tuesday, we picked up a girl, and I think we played fairly well, won by a good margin I believe. Today, at first I was the only girl, but as we lined up for the first point, some guy brought another girl. So we mainly played 5-2, and when one of us were really tired we would go 6-1. But it was a lot of fun, I think I played really well the last two days.

I feel like I need to be more assertive. Like sometimes I want to handle or pull or whatever, but I never really say anything. And this has nothing to do with being assertive, but this one girl has gotten my name wrong for the past week, and I haven't bothered to correct her, and I now respond to "Lauren." Haha. In my defense, I didn't realize that she was talking to me until the 3rd or so time she called me Lauren, but by then I thought it was too late/awkward to correct her. And now it's been a week, even more awkward. Hahahaha. I'm pathetic.

And my legs hurt, and I'm tired. But I do love ultimate. I really like ultimate when it's relaxed and chill when I just go out and have fun. This is the most fun I've had playing ultimate in a while.

Amazing Discovery!

So I was enjoying seedless grapes today, and then thought about seedless watermelons, and how we rarely see these fruits with seeds anymore. And then I realized that fruits have seeds, and vegetables do not. And that's why avocados and tomatoes are fruits. But if watermelons and grapes no longer have seeds... then aren't they vegetables?? DUM DUM DUM!

I never cease to amaze myself. Haha. I'm off to enjoy more vegetables!

I am a bum.

Pretty much sums it up. I have done anything since I've been home. I have, however, watched the whole season 1 of Chuck. And I'm in love with it. Haha. Oh, I really liked the girl--Yvonne Strahovski, she's tall, pretty, blonde, but her teeth aren't exactly perfect and that bothers me a bit. Haha. She's still hot though. And Zachary Levi is just so... dorky attractive, he's cute.

Well, back to doing nothing, and watching more TV.

Ooh, and I'm looking into a new phone. Nokia 5310? Samsung Katalyst? Blackberry Pearl? But I think for the Pearl to get email, it's like an extra 10-20 bucks a month. And it'd be pointless to get a blackberry without the internet and email..

P.S. Loved Get Smart. Steve Carrell is awesome, I love him.

Dinner at 11 pm??

sayaju (2:04:31 AM):wow, you're up late
sayaju (2:04:32 AM):'
sayaju returned at 2:04:35 AM
sh0rtEEtEE (2:04:38 AM):haha
sh0rtEEtEE (2:04:39 AM):yeahh
sayaju (2:04:50 AM):and why is thaT?
sh0rtEEtEE (2:04:54 AM):went over to make dinner with a friend
sh0rtEEtEE (2:05:04 AM):who didn't bother to read the cook and prep time
sh0rtEEtEE (2:05:13 AM):so.. uh we didn' eat until 11:10
sayaju (2:05:21 AM):hahaha
sayaju (2:05:23 AM):that's funnyy

Yeah, we decided to make lasagna. And Hui probably didn't read anything past the ingredients. Haha. But we watched Music and Lyrics and Definitely, Maybe. Music and Lyrics is great. Drew Barrymore looks absolutely gorgeous in that movie. Loved that movie.

PoP goes my heart!

Una Mas

One more. Tomorrow. Psychobio. It already sounds horrible.

It's way to early, I've been up too early, asleep too late, and absolutely starving. Too bad I'm at work. Well, after tomorrow, I'll be free. :)

OH! And on Friday, me and Daniela are gonna go check out the new sushi buffet in town. Last showing at Fuji's was embarrassing for me. Redemption!

Epiphany

I realized that I don't fit in, and you know what? And then I had an epiphany. I'm totally cool with that. I don't want to fit in. I want to be who I am, with my values, with my morals. At first, I wanted to experience it, but not anymore. Here's to living my life how I want to.

Do what you want. Be who are you. Live your own life. I'm going to. Staaaaaaaaarrrrtinggggg... NOW!

How I Spent Memorial Day Weekend

New Addiction: House.

That show is super good. Love it. Hugh Laurie is a wonderful actor.

Pre Memorial Weekend

Hui and Julia came up to visit on Thursday night and left on Friday. Before they came and picked me up, I went to our Frisbee Formal. It was nice to see everyone all dressed up and looking pretty. They came around 10, and picked up then. But apparently all the action (haha, get it?) happened after I had left. Haha, it's okay. I've heard all the 2nd hand versions of them.

We headed out for a late dinner at Bistro 33 and then headed home and chilled. Nothing too exciting. Hui proceeded to kick my ass at wii while Julia was passed out on my couch. Woke up semi-early the next day to line up for Fuji's sushi buffet. Opened at 11. Completely honest, we were full by 11:20. Hahahaha. It was hard to keep stuffing food down, haven't been to a buffet in a good amount of time. Sometimes I feel like when you are forced to stuff down food, you can't enjoy it properly cuz the whole time your stomach is screaming at you. Man, what a waste. Haha. We left by like 11:45, I think. Between us 3, we had demolished 20 plates. Eating is such a sport. It was pretty good though. I had fun.

Walked though downtown, stopped in Dimple Music to get the new Jesse McCartney CD. Haha. Definitely listening to it right now. And then they went to shop at Gap while I just felt like crap the whole day from eating so much. I used to be so much better at stuffing food. After they had left, I immediately fell into a food coma.

UPA Finals

Amazing how UBC went on that 7 point run. Lesson: even if you're down at half, if you have the heart, you can still win. Lesson: if you're up at half, don't get cocky. Haha.

I just hope one day, I'll be able to experience that. Nationals '10?


Sooooo hot in Davis. 95+ degrees. Hit 102 yesterday. Swimmmmmming!

Busy

Seems like each week I have midterm(s) and/or paper(s). Man... There's no end to this madness!

Well, got to continue studying.. and searching for an internship.

P.S. IRON MAN is awesome. And Robert Downey Jr. is pretty hot and sexy. Yes, I know he's 43. So? You're just jealous.

SophSquatch!

Last night we had an intense game of IM frisbee. So it was the sophomore team against the other team that picked up the coaches and everyone who wasn't a sophomore. There had been major trash talking for both sides. I, myself, refrained myself for the most part because I don't want to be saying stuff and then eating my own words later. I wait til I can back it up. And honestly, after they got Halverson and Sarah P, I was unsure of how the game would go. We have great guys, but pretty much all the girls it was their first year playing. So I kept my mouth shut (while Danica ran her mouth off like crazy) and the whole time I was just like, Let's wait and see. Don't talk before you know what's going to happen.

Anyways, I handled the whole game. It was a bit different in ho-stack handling. I was definitely confused half the time. But I don't think I messed up that much or anything. I think I did okay. Probably would've done better had I known what I was doing. It was a great game. We were in the lead in the beginning. Then they took the lead. And then we took the lead again, and they tied it. Universal game point. A huck goes up. It's all the way in the endzone. Three or four guys go up for it. I know Halverson went up for it. Anyways, Nick totally gets it and comes down with it. Woot. Take that, Happy Hour, take that. I had a lot of fun though.

Can't wait to meet them in the finals. Until then. SophSquatch.

ESP?

Each time, I'm struggling between my choices. Trying to find answers. Somehow, the same person unknowingly answers me in a way. ESP? Coincidence? Well, thanks for the encouragement, but I feel like it's making the choice that much harder when you're showing me what I'm walking away from. I appreciate it nonetheless.

Reflections

Another season over. So much has happened. On the way home (the LONG drive. Haha), Sai asked me if this met my expectations. I asked her if she meant by the tournament, or this whole season, or what specifically. And she just asked about everything in ultimate in general.

So first, about the coaches. Definitely met expectations. Did their job well. Coached. Inspired. Motivated. In games, got our head straight, redirect our focus. And I found it helpful from coaches who would tell me little things that they think that I need to work on, and how I can improve. I was encouraged by them numerous times. I love our coaches.

The season.. Hmm. My expectations fluctuated a bit. On one hand, I knew that we weren't going to make Nationals. But the other hand, I thought we had amazing rookies, and a pretty decent young team, so I also had somewhat high expectations. For the most part, when we played well. We played well. But it's a little inconsistent. And it's also that we can't always have power lines. But lots of rookies exceeded my expectations. It was great. People have stepped up SO much since just sectionals. It's absolutely amazing. Jenna with her layout. Amazing. I was so impressed this weekend. And I am eager to see what the team will be like next year. I don't know if we'll make Nationals next year, cuz it all depends on the team and how we develop, and also how other teams are. So we'll see, but I definitely think we have a fair shot. If we were able to do okay this year with pretty much all rookies, and only a few returners, imagine the possibilities next year.

Expectations about myself. Haha. Uh. Let's see, early in the season like fall. I had super high expectations to be super kick ass and amazing. And once winter hit, I soon realize that it wasn't gonna happen. Haha. I was a bit frustrated with that. Like I really had high expectations for both myself and the team, and when that didn't happen immediately, I got frustrated. I do think I improved a lot, and there's so much more to improve. But I am content with myself. Yeah, I'm not good as I wanted to be, but honestly, I feel like it was somewhat unrealistic, and I am content and proud of myself. I still have two year to continue to prove myself and even more improvement. Never Enough.

Regionals. Our team played some points really well. Ran our O, had good D. Other times, we completely fell apart. We played well our first half against Oregon. I had so points where I was just working in flow, and working well. Other times, it was just hard to get my head in the game. When I had to lead a line, I found it especially difficult. Mainly because I'm not the best handler and there was not much to work with. I work better in flow. Dump and swing. I feel that I have a much higher turning percentage when I'm picking up the disc. Especially if it's force forehand, and a coach tells me to run a huck play. My backhands are usually fairly good. I can throw my forehands fine without pressure, or right after the swing when the mark isn't completely on me. But with pressure, it's definitely 50/50. And usually right after I throw one away, the next time, it's hard to shake it off, and it just adds to the pressure making it even harder. Self-fulling prophecy. Give me flow, and I'll work much better. I'm not a player maker, and I'm not trying to be. Maybe one day. We'll see. Until then.

This season was completely different than last year. A lot more emotionally draining. A lot more drama (probably just cuz I was more involved). I played a completely different role. And it was tougher, not just cuz I had to step up, but in also mentally and emotionally. It was definitely frustrating sometimes. And took a bigger role in my life.

Need to figure some things before it starts again. I hope I find the answers I need.

I love this team. Pleiades Love.

But it's over. For now.

Picnic Day

Wow. Uh. Never again.

Lots of midterms and assignments this week. Had my psychobio one today (missed our IM game cuz I was studying for that. Sorry! Heard there was only 2 girls for the first half, and then another showed up). I hate science. Only got 4.5 hours of sleep (if that) before our 6 AM morning practice. Everyone was so slow. Haha. And there was frost all over the field. And then downed a cup of joe before my midterm at 10. First time I bought coffee from the coho. Haven't had coffee since the summer at my internship. And I officially deem coffee ineffective for me, since I'm still really tired, and I want to nap. And now my stomach feels all weird.

Well, Amy and I are gonna make pasta tonight! Woot. Deliciousness guaranteed.

Time to type up notes for my Business Law class since I've already distracted myself with the crossword and the Office. OMG, Jim and Pam! So cute. Can't wait for One Tree Hill tonight. Probably can't watch it cuz of the studying I need to do. And when does Gossip Girl come back on? I miss that show.

Sectionals

3rd. Only played Stanford A and B, and Berkeley A and B.

Did not play as well as I wanted to, and I became pretty tired by the time we played Stanford. In the beginning, my forehand hucks looked pretty good, but the wind would slightly take them out. But later, they started blading again. Need to work on that more.

Another thing to work on: not traveling. OMG. Most embarrassing moment. Pool play. Bulky to Teresa to Allie going deep. Got the pass, traveled (took a few too many steps), hucked it off. Nice floaty, looked like a 50/50 disc, and Allie skyed her defender for the score. Except for the fact that a travel was called on me. Everyone started celebrating. Sarah P was all excited. And I was like, "Uh.. it comes back.. uh.. travel called. ....yeah.." Embarrassing. But it's okay. Allie scored again.

So that's my goal. No traveling.

Pissed

Okay, may not have handled it in the best way, but remind me not to try ever again, because apparently it's pointless. Why waste time and kill hope? Won't ever bother next time. I've done my share, and I've tried even when it's the other way around. But nothing happens other than dead hope. So why even bother?? I know I'm not going to anymore.

Sectionals this weekend. Livermore. Have the worst shin splints ever. Now that my knee is better, another roadblock, eh? From IC Ultimate: "Santa Cruz and Davis are both in rebuilding years, and they will be duking it out for third. Lillian Berla gives Sol an edge over Davis and their army of short Asian handlers." Hahahahaha at the army of short Asian handlers. Hahaha. Makes me laugh.

But yeah.. third?? Let's do it. I'm a LOT more confident about my forehand hucks now. :) Maybe I'll actually call plays and huck it now.

Things to work on:
1. Defense. I want handblocks again. Haven't gotten any since the one day at Prez when I got 3 or 4. And more run throughs.
2. Hucks. (both flick and backhand)
3. Break marks more often.
4. Wise decisions.

And hopefully when I'm on that field, this anger was dissipate. Remind me not to be foolish again.

DUI Recap

19472 shades darker, sunburnt lips, and aching body. Got murdered by all the club teams. Lost to Chico (which consisted of non-Chico, former Pleiades), and beat Santa Cruz (however, Lillian and Hannah were not playing..). In a pool play, I had a huge backhand huck, which a Fury player commented that it was a "great rip." And then in the same point, she proceeded to hand-block me. Haha. I was working a lot on my forehand hucks this weekend, and they seems somewhat catchable now. At least it's a lot less bladely. But my backhand hucks are getting too floaty now.

Sectionals this week. Should be fun. Time to bring the A game. Staying at Meg's! We got to play sardines or hide-and-seek.

Who I Am

I think I need to rethink the priorities in my life. I feel like I've lost my focus a bit. While I've discovered new things that I love, I feel like it's taking away everything else from my life. It's making me lose focus from what's really important.

I need to get my priorities straight, and maybe then I'll be happier with my life. It's hard to choose between one thing and another. But right now, I'm not happy with myself nor my life.

And hopefully one day, I'll be proud of who I am and what I've done. To achieve that I need to rethink aspects of my life.

Whatever

So sick of life and everything. Getting emo again. Blah.

Back to studying.

Whatever

Still a little bit sick. Got it checked out earlier this week, not mono. Woo. But this is getting annoying. Anyways, still injured for ultimate. Practiced for the first time on Thursday. Ankle was definitely not at 100% and hurt afterwards. I think I'm going to sit out for final weeks pick-up. And maybe Fools. But either way I was only going to play one day at Fools.

Practice was okay, first time I played since Stanford Qualifier, so almost two weeks. My pull looked really good, but I only pulled once. Sai let me be a cutter for one point. It was... different. Haha. Back to the old days, I think I like handling better now.. The truth comes out. Well, I don't know, maybe if I got to cut a bit more again. Then we worked on trap-zone. That was fun, but I think we definitely need to perfect it more.

I had an oral final for Chinese on Friday, but it's individual and it was taking a while, so lots of people had class. So she was hesitant but then decided to let people come back next week if they had class. I didn't have class, but I was very unprepared. I was going to stay and just get it over with, but then I realized that if I only studied for 10 minutes, I probably would be better off. So I just left, but I still haven't started studying. Oh well.

And sprinnng break! Sickness: leave my body!

Buy!

New Cleats! Originally $175. However, it was on clearance at nike.com and only size left was 6.5 which happens to be my size. Got marked down to 59.99. Plus tax and shipping, total comes out to be $73.26 which is still super good. It's made with kangaroo leather which supposedly is super good. Feels somewhat.. unethical. Haha. It's the same model as the cleats I have now, but I guess slightly better because of the materials. Last pair cost $50ish, got them at the outlets. But I'm going to send them back to Nike cuz there's cracks in it, and hopefully get a voucher for my next pair or whatever.

Next on the to-buy list.. North Face Recon. Looks like it'll be 78/79 bucks. So close to buying it, but I should at least to try to save some money in the meantime. So tempting!!

Still sick, people are scaring me into thinking that I have mono. I think I'm going to go to the health center again next week. Even though they are completely incompetent. And I also have this weird tumorous bump on my knee. I remember falling on it pretty hard going after a disc, and usually it swells up and is all fluid-y. But this bump is rock hard, it's like an extra knee cap or something. Can't be good. Really hurts too.

North Face Recon: to buy or not to buy? I know I can hold off getting the iPod, cuz I already have one. Well, I guess I already have a backpack... Ugh.

EDIT: I just bought an iPod. Damn, so much for self control. But I got the 2nd generation one (the one without the video because I don't know how to download videos) and it's only 160 as opposed to 200. So I guess I really need to hold off on that Recon backpack until at least my next paycheck which should come within 10 days or so.. Man, I need to save up!

Materialistic Goods

I want a Northface backpack. And an iPod. Need more $$

Oh, and I need new cleats. Bottoms of both feet are cracked. No idea how I cracked plastic on grass.

Northface Heckler, Recon, or Sweeper!

Sick and Injured

Still sick. And rolled my ankle like 3 times. On crutches now. Fun.

First day of Stanford, sat out completely for the first game against Stanford B. And then played against Sonoma and Arizona. I think I did alright. Definitely could have done better had I been able to breathe. Haha. But I was just super congested that I was getting short on breathe. And for this one point I was in as mid, and it was soooo hard. People on the sideline saw that I was struggling to breathe and were asking me if I needed an injury sub, but I just switched to wing.

Played all day today. Lost to Caltech. Absolutely pathetic. Last game against Simon Fraiser, I rolled or turned on my ankle funny 3 times. Once was one a forehand fake, and I just turned it badly, but I played on cuz it didn't seem that bad after. And it was fine, I was still able to run and play. But then on D, I had rolled it pretty bad, and I was just kind of on the ground.. as opposed to putting the mark on, but I got up and put the mark on and kept playing. And the third time was cutting upline in the endzone, got up and landed funny. All on the same ankle. Definitely swollen, and unable to walk on it. Great.

And we got 11th at Qualifier which is worse than how we did at Invite last year (9th). After the first day when we were 2-1, I thought we were doing well, and had a good shot of making Invite. I was going to buy a jersey for myself had we made it as a prize cuz I would have felt like I would've earned it. But so much for that. Oh well, there's always next year. I look forward to how this team will be like next year.

For now, I will try to get better.. And have my throat not hurt that much.. Blah.

Mute

I have no voice whatsoever. Yesterday, I just sounded like a man, today, I'm a mute. Sai kept making fun of me last night.. Well, Stanford will be fun since I can't talk at all. And I still feel like crap. Thermaful!

Uh-Oh

Sick (with a fever I think) and bad knee(s) with Stanford Qualifier 3 days away. Great. And I think we're in the hardest pool. Well, I'm off to study and hopefully feel better. :(

Blehhh.

Past Week

This past week since San Diego has been horrible. First the accident, and then crap all over in San Diego. And then concussion. And now stupid roommates. Bleh.

Oh, so the guy that hit us had his insurance call me, but I missed the call, and I don't think I'm going to bother to return the call. Cuz I can't do anything about it, it's insured under enterprise and I already filled out everything for them. So enterprise should be contacting them soon anyways, and it's not like I could do anything to help them out. But I think I might call fleet services and give them the claim number and have them handle it, cuz it's their problem from now. They said they would handle everything.

Recap

My goals were:

1. Better D. More handblocks and run through D's.
2. Better decisions.
3. No more turnovers. Or at least, fewer amounts. And no more turfing. Pretty throws.
4. Good zone D. Need to work on being deep-deep. Don't overestimate my vertical leap (like practice yesterday, but I was told I was super close to skying/getting the D, but no overestimating anymore!).
5. Good attitude (especially if my parents are there! haha).

1. Yeah, I think so. 3 or 4 handblocks. Totally bruised my hand and caused internal bleeding from one of them. And a few D's.
2. Eh.. sort of. Need to work on that more.
3. Definitely fewer, I think.
4. Eh.. not really. I got split a lot as deep. And our cup wasn't working that well.
5. Yeah....... about that. *sigh* I'm more frustrated/disappointed about that than anyone else could be.

Well, about to file the accident report. Great. This weekend was just... bleh. And I definitely think I was PMS-ing, so that didn't help at all.

San Diego..

San Diego was fun and disastrous. More disastrous than fun.

San Diego (Presidents' Day)

Leaving for SD tomorrow, having the team stay at my place. Fun, crazy and hectic. Haha. And no coaches. Also crazy and hectic. I look forward to my parents coming out and watching. Hopefully they understand it more now. Haha. And maybe friends will come out too. Going to be a long long drive.

But some goals:
1. Better D. More handblocks and run through D's.
2. Better decisions.
3. No more turnovers. Or at least, fewer amounts. And no more turfing. Pretty throws.
4. Good zone D. Need to work on being deep-deep. Don't overestimate my vertical leap (like practice yesterday, but I was told I was super close to skying/getting the D, but no overestimating anymore!).
5. Good attitude (especially if my parents are there! haha).

Hopefully, improvement from SB. On another note, I love the new girls. Some of them are awesome and amazing. They make me feel invincible and boost up my self-esteem, especially when our team isn't doing too well, and I get discouraged/annoyed.

Something random. Supposedly, my facial expressions are really.... expressive? Like when I give people weird look, it's really obvious or when I don't like something. Not much of a poker face. And sometimes it's bad when you try to hide your emotions/dislike. So.. need to work on that? Otherwise it's too obvious when I'm mad or I don't like someone, and you need to hide your emotions sometimes. Game face!

Super Tuesday

Hi kids,

Remember to vote. I would rant about the importance to vote, but you should already know it. Next time, you're upset at some law or whatever (tax raises/cuts, war in Iraq, increased tuition, health care, social security, etc.) and you didn't vote.. then STFU.

LOVE,
tee

p.s. vote for Hillary! :)

SB Aftereffect

I woke up in pain today. Took me a while to reach across my bed to turn off my alarm. Each muscle was aching in pain. That's what I get for playing a weekend of ultimate and rushing back for an IM bball game. First thing I did was down ibuprofen. And I really try not to take drugs ever. Last time other than today and yesterday was probably at Regionals. And I have a pretty bruise on my knee from my knee block. And I pulled my right butt cheek. So that's in pain, and apparently ibuprofen does not lessen that pain.

No pain. No gain. (or like my slogan for running for class council "No Feng. No gain." Either one works)

SB Results

So...we lost every game, BUT I think we played very well. We fought super hard for each point, and we had lots of rookies as handlers and they did so well. I'm so proud of them. And I think once we start subbing to win, and putting those rookies with awesome potential as receivers, we'll be really kick ass. And I can't wait. And Meg and I scored the first point in the whole tournament. Woot. Yeah!

Highlight of the tournament: GETTING MY FIRST HANDBLOCK EVER!! Dude, I'm so proud of that, and I felt like that really did boost my confidence on defense. I feel like I put on a much better mark now. And I also got a body block? It was like a knee block. I saw her going for it, and I just moved my whole mark over and blocked it.

On another note, I got handblocked for the first time. Haha. Highs and lows. Got my first handblock, and first hand blocked. Haha. Whatever, I'm still happy.

There were some pretty intimidating zones. Stanford and SB with their trap zones, and SC who would have one of the points pretty much be man-on/hub-crasher. That really closed off a lot of our options. But I feel like our handlers did a good job of working it down. We do need to swing more, but it's quite difficult in those zones.

What I really need to work on are my throws. I have some good throws, but they are SOOO inconsistent. So I need to work on those, and stop turning it over. So I will be making a personal goal to go and out and practice throwing A LOT. I really need to. As a handler I really need to make sure that my throws are always there and consistent.

I'm really happy with my D though. I think I had a really good mark, I got to a lot higher stall counts, putting on huge marks. And also I got a few D's. So I'm very happy about that, cuz the one thing that I always thought I was super bad at was my D. I got D's as point and mid.

Attitude and constant complaining is what pissed me off this tournament. A few rookies were just whining the whole time, and it's annoying. And lots of attitude, they really need to work on that. And I was watching our zone against Stanford, and I noticed that they were crashing through the cup a lot, and the mids weren't doing anything. And I know if I were in the cup as a mid, I could have stopped a lot of it. Earlier I was in zone as deep, but once I was called in again, I immediately told Eppie that I want to be mid because I know I could stop the crashing. Then someone was all like, "Oh, I'm hurt so I can't run fast so I don't want to play point" And Eppie was like, "Uhh." Kind of not knowing what to say, I thought she might put her out or whatever. So I decided to step up, and I was like, "Whatever, it's okay, I'll play point" Even though I suck at it, and I know I do. And then I totally suck at it, and none of the mids were stopping the crashers. And before I got bumped to point, I totally got a D as a mid. And that just really ticked me off. I can play mid well, but because you don't want to run or whatever I had to step up and be subjected at a position that I was not good at while you were not stopping the crashing. That annoys me.

And people complaining about their playing time. There's so many people, and if there's people better obviously it's smarter for them to get more playing time. It sucks, but that's how it is. And for the most part, I think it was pretty equal. And if you don't like, step up and prove that you're just as good and deserve more playing time, or suck it up and shut up.

I think I did alright as handler, but there is so much room for improvement, and I really need to be more consistent. But overall, I'm proud of myself and our whole team.

Lots of rookies were really encouraging to me, and gave me the confidence boost that I needed. Oh, so after a point, Meg told me to calm down. And I feel like I have my yelling thing down. Haven't done anything like that since that point in Chico. And it was just that I was getting really frustrated. I get really intense though, and I think it helps me get fired up and play my best but I really hope I don't come across as some pissed off person. Because I'm not, I just need to keep up the intensity so we don't just roll over and die. I really thought I had my cool under control, I don't know.

San Diego: Expect more handblocks, D's, and awesome assists. And maybe a score.. hehe. Count on it.

Santa Barbara Invite

I feel like I talk about ultimate too much. But it's kind of taking over my life, I'm not trying to, but it is. It's okay though, because I love it.

So Santa Barbara. I am so pumped. There's only 6 teams, so.. that's a little weird. But it's also good, cuz we'll be able to see and play all the teams and know what we are possibly going to be facing in the future. I think they'll be lots of zone. So I really really look foward to handling in zone, though I must say I find popping much more fun and easier. Haha. And I'm interested in playing more deep-deep. I was a bit surprised to see myself as deep-deep, mainly because I'm not that tall in comparison to our deeps last year. But I think I'll be fine. It's just a matter of self-confidence. Sort of. Probably less tiring than mid, too. Haha.

I'm so pumped. I can't wait to play against some of these teams. And I know it'll be pretty hard, we're going to have some pretty tough girls on us, but that's just more experience and opportunity to improve. And I am going to make the best of it and push myself. And I guess this is sort of the start of knowing how our team is going to do in the future. It all starts here.

And I think our team will be fine, obviously not as good as last year, but still a team that people need to respect (even though they don't even when we're good, so screw them). We'll show them. I'm really eager for this year. Now that I know what I'm doing and all, it's much more fun. Haha.

So when I'm back, I'll update on how it went, how I did and boys. Haha. Just wanted to put that in there.

Story

Haha. This all started in a facebook message. Everyone pieced together a story.

"[Only moments after she had arrived at her estranged husbands house...]

[she heard moaning coming from the room that she once shared with this man. Cautiously, she made her way into the hallway, the carpet silencing her footsteps.]

[...there was a smell in the air...some might say an aroma....]

[hesitantly, she slowly reached out for the door knob and.....]

[it was an empty room!!!!!.....rememebering again that her ear was faulty at times, she inched a few steps forward to the next door....]

[she took a deep breath, not sure if her imagination was creating fake sounds for her. She opened the door, and saw her daughter......]

[with the pool boy... or should i say pool man! They were startled...]

[He quickly stood up as to rid himself of any wrong implications.

"Mommy!" her four year old daughter called, "Look at my doll house! He was playing dolls with me!"

Eduardo, the pool man, turned a dark shade a scarlet underneath his already dark complexion.

"Um.. I'll go finish cleaning the pool." He scurried away without being excused.]

[confuzzled, the girls mother watched as this man darted away, (though she couldn't help but notice what a nich butt he had).....

meanwhile her daughter jumped up and down, clearly excited to tell her mother something.

"What is it sweetheart?" her mother asked .

"Mommy, can we get a pet camel today?" the girl replied anxiously, with her hopeful eyes gazing up like 'puss in boots' from the shrek movie....]

And alternate endings
Ending 1:
["Sweetie, why do you want a pet camel?"

"So we can ride them in Egypt for my birthday!" her daughter replied.

"Oh, Amy, I don't know.. I'll have to talk it over with daddy, but I heard your friend Teresa wants to ride polar bears in Antarctica."

"Antarctica? Whatever, Teresa's weird" Amy pouted before become more engrossed with her dolls than her wish for a pet camel.

She left her daughter the room, and exited, closing the door on the way out. Hearing Eduardo singing to himself as he cleaned the pool, she smiled to herself.]

Ending 2:
[The girl's mother was quite taken aback by her daughter's seemingly random request for a camel, yet she figured one more pet wouldn't hurt.

So the next day, she and her daughter went to the zoo in hopes of adopting a camel to take home with them. To their dismay, all of the camels were missing!

"When we came to work today, all the camels were gone, with their cage gates wide open," the zookeeper explained. "All that was left was this note." He handed them a piece of white paper with these words hurriedly scribbled on it:

"We took your camels for a trip to Egypt. Will return promptly.
Sincerely,
The Girls of Avalon 32."]

NO MORE BOTTLED WATER!

http://food.yahoo.com/blog/beautyeats/22317/tap-vs-bottled-what-should-you-drink

save the environment please.

Chargers are in Semi-finals. Woot. I actually don't know anything about their season. But go SD!

On another note, I got UnderArmour shorts. Try to pants me now! Uh.. that's not an invitation or challenge or anything.. So light and breezy. And stretchy.

And I can't wait til Santa Barbara. I haven't played ultimate in so long (at a tournament)! This will be a good indicator as to how the rest of our season will go.. Hopefully well.

GO CHARGERS!